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"Embodiment is the practice of attending to your sensations. Awareness of your body serves as a guiding compass to help you feel more in charge of the course of your life. Somatic awareness provides a foundation for empathy, helps you make healthy decisions, and gives important feedback about your relationships with others. Embodiment in somatic psychology applies mindfulness and movement practices to awaken body awareness as a tool for healing." -Dr. Arielle Schwartz

When I first learned of somatic movement in 2014, I did not want to touch it. In my head-centric ways, I was focused on "moving on" from my past using both spiritual and mental bypassing. When I would meditate, I would initially ground my energy into the earth. But I also loved to explore the universe and astral realms. In yoga classes, I would grunt through the class, always self-conscious. I compared myself to the most flexible yogis in the room. I heavily identified with my inflated animus. At the time, feeling into the body felt very uncomfortable and unknown, so I didn't want to go there.

Several years later, I became pregnant. If you have ever been pregnant, then you know that you cannot escape your body. Everything that I had used to bypass feeling into my body was no longer an option. I had to start making peace with all the feelings and sensations my body had to offer. This turning point turned out to be a great gift. Over the years, my body had been trying to communicate with me, and I was ignoring the messages.

My initial experience with fully trusting my body was my home birth. I knew that I had to have a relationship with my body. I also knew that the baby wasn't just going to pop out without integration with my mind, body, heart, and gut. In my second trimester, I signed up for several online birthing classes. I became familiar with the intricacies of the birth process. I used my mind to map the experience mentally. I then used my meditation to begin simulating the experience. Throughout each mediation, I explored how my body felt throughout the experience. Were there any aches and pains, if so, where? If I noticed a trend, I would ensure I put together protocols to ease the pain. For instance, I saw my legs and lower back were tired from carrying the weigh. In response, I would take long, warm baths with Epsom salt and essential oils that helped with the pain. I would have my husband massage these areas before bedtime. I also had great herbal remedies that I used to make sure I was getting adequate nutrition to build a baby. The feedback I would get was in my daily excrements. Gross for some, but valuable bodily feedback from my microbiome nonetheless.

Another example was in my meditations. If I felt fear arise, I would sit and be with it. I would then write down all my concerns and go through them one by one. I would see what sensations would come in my body as I jotted them down. I wanted to make sure that when I was in labor, all my innermost fear would be at a place of contentment. When I knew I was going into labor, I mentally told my body that I surrendered to its great wisdom. In the weeks leading up to it, I had created 365 prayer ties filled with loving intention to help me through labor and the first year of my son's life. During the creation of these prayer ties, I called in my ancestors and guides. I ensured I was grounded and aligned with my heart and gut. I intended that the creation of my prayer ties were an embodied practice. It was those prayer ties that helped me through colicky nights, and baby's first illness, which felt like death, but stopped sort of it. I felt comfort in those dark moments. I sat up for long hours holding my son, making sure he could breathe. I thanked my body for its strength and for the deep love I felt for him and myself. I was so thankful for the antibodies in the breast milk that my body produced. At the same time, I was cranky, tired, and not feeling well myself. I did my best not to indulge in the frustration and took the experience minute by minute. After making peace with my body and the human experience, I was able to let it be what it was. Eventually, it passed, and I felt lighter and even more connected in my body.

The next step I took was booking a few sessions in somatic therapy. I took a few past traumas that I thought I had resolved mentally and felt each with my body in each session. A day after one session, someone shared a very triggering situation with me regarding a person close to me. At the moment, I thought I had handled it well. However, that night, I woke up and couldn't move my neck, and my body hurt in a way it had never hurt before. It took me two weeks of love and attention to restore the movement in my body through massage, baths, and ice, and cold therapy. It was also at this time where I started reading the following books: "When The Body Says No" by Gabor Mate, "The Practice of Pure Awareness by Reginald Ray, The Body keeps Score by Bessel Van Der Kolk and "Healing the Fragmented Selves of Trauma Survivors" by Janina Fisher. These books were helpful for me as I integrated my somatic experiences and therapy with my mental understanding of it all.

Embodiment is vital when we are looking to heal trauma within ourselves. During Covid-19, I have been listening to what messages my body, mind, gut, and heart have for me. We are not only dealing with our personal past traumas, but also our collective trauma. Every day is a good day to move, dance, and work through the day's tense energy.

Moving forward, I would suggest you try and read my "Be Curious Deep Dive Series" using your senses. How do the words make your body feel? What sensations are coming up? Is it stirring any emotions inside of you? If so, what? How about memories? I would also suggest you take a moment to practice this exercise and see what comes up for you. The next thing to do would be to move the energy. We got to get up and shake it all up and out of our bodies. If you are more interested in the topic, I would recommend the books I shared above, as they were eye-opening for me.

The visual I have of my energy field (mind, body, and soul) is that of a filter. I see energy continually moving through my body. I know that energy also gets stuck, so each day, I try and move out the energy manually through movement and self-care practices and rituals. If I need to feel emotions, I won't hold back or keep them in. Bottling it up causes more build-up, and it can burn me out, much like it did when I couldn't move my neck and felt pain through my spine. It was no good, so my lesson was no more bypassing. :) What is missing from this article, and what I hope to write about in the future is why we bypass, and bottle things up, and how the compound affects lead to living a mental life, rather than an embodied experience. Until next time, stay curious, my dear friend.

Contemplation:

  • How are you feeling right now?

  • What is coming up in your body as you digest this content?

  • What emotions are feelings are arising in your right now?

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